Thursday, 25 March, 2010

I am A +ve (read positive)!!

Frustration,stress at its's been all of Sorrys these days....
Through this blog of mine I'd like to apologize all of them..who I've been rude to....

Ok...Chalta hai...just a gossip..
Me:Mummy,friend X's brother has bought an i phone lately and she says-'Bhaiyya ka phone use karte karte Mujhe touch screen ki adaat ho gayee..'
Fifteen days later:
Mum buys Nokia 5800-touch screen(No I didn't insist her to buy that..I told her to buy any 5-6K one..)

(Me sitting on the sofa watching TV with Mum..)
My younger sis:Mummy,using your phone,I got accustomed to touch screen.
***drops jaws*****

Ok..Ok...Chalta hai...atleast when it comes to Dhoni...or yuvraj or Srishant...or..or...
Bro preparing for his exam and me disturbing him with my IPL chat...
Me:Chennai Superkings lost again...Dhoni chala gaya hoga facebook per update dene...
Bro laughs with no comments.(Pat would have come the reply if it was Srishant or Yuvi)
Me:Before he used to say only facebook Twitter,Orkut every social networking sites tune he's singing...if he'd have concentrated on the game,they'd have won.saw AIRCELS new add?
Bro:Poor man,he's just advertising for that...doesn't mean he's always on facebook/Orkut.

Ok...Ok..Chalta are in a bad mood...
Bro:What are you texting since so long..?
Checks my sms and says-'smsing or mailing?What are you texting..?'

Me:Keshu's coming tomorrow after a month....I have a surprise planned for her and I asked this friend of mine to help me and she says-'you tell everything at the last moment'.
I scolded her badly and so is the Sms about.(with a wide smile and  a feeling of acheivement).

Bro:What's great in that?It looks bad...when you scold if showing attitude...lowering them,pretending-you work,care more than them....

The way bro said..I didn't really mean making my friends feel something like that...
Some times you don't see what others feel...Option A or Option B you want to vent out all the frustration, you need a punching bag..and you start...And it's always been the same with me..Everytime.

I felt ashamed and proud at the same time for the way my younger brother looks at life...

So.. from now on...nahi chalega!nahi chalega...!

I remember last year on my birthday,mid night..I recieved the most unexpected calls...and it was then I wrote in a novel which I was reading-'All are good...I am the only one who thinks negatively about everyone...from now on I take an oath 'I'll abandon pecimissm and sadism...'

Ah..ah that was a I am given other chance no?

Tuesday, 16 March, 2010

This will pass did!it was big!

She's coming tomorrow!She's coming tomorrow..
A month with out big....arduous..gloomy..lost!!
If I am given a chance not to live any part of my life,it'd be this!not exaggerating....

16th Feb, 6:59pm
Thanks for the help today. Dont know what i'd do without you. Thanks for being there for me always. I will miss you and love you.
We were together the whole day, almost all the time winding up things- the paper presentation, seminar and other stuff that'd satisfy my H.O.D's hunger,for she'd leave tomorrow, leave for a month!!! For a holiday to London. Didn't know how to react, happy for her or sad for myself and the other friend of mine, or feel J!

17th Feb, 12:19am
I'll miss you too so much.
I don't think i can ever forget this night...for it was the worst night of my life till now.......

Fought with my sister I went upstairs in the room to sleep, tried reading, Couldn't! If I ever get a chance to take an avenge.. making my sister read a stupid novel, I wouldn't let the opportunity go, cause she did- made me read Christopher Pike's- See You Tomorrow. With already much confusion in life author made things so weird- girl meets boy, boy thinks he's seen the girl before.girl after a month says-"I am your future."' Ugh!!

Went into the balcony, poor mosquitoes didn't know what I was going through, so they carried on their usual task of sucking blood.. I killed each of them and played with their legs..venting my frustration.
Every time I feel low, I call either of these 3 people- Annu, Jeet, Sis.
Didn't want to call Annu, he's been busy with shifting his house that he forgot replying to my SMS!
Called JK, poor man just got down the flight, so thought troubling him'd be a bad idea.
Reluctantly called sis, wondering if I'd disturb Jeeju. Sis didn't take the call. I roamed all around the house up, down. Went into the balcony again, went into the kitchen! Again came back to the room- saw sister's missed calls. I dialled her back, she was in chennai (office trip) thank God jeeju didn't come to know about my sleeping disorder.
I tried pretending that I wasn't sleepy, simply... she tried getting things out of me by her 'kya hua beta..' tone.. but even I didn't know what was happening.. there was no one thing that I was confused/ worried about.. And keshu leaving added onto it badly.
Sis gave me a concentrating exercise- take air inside your stomach and leave it bit by bit in seven steps.. which worked surprisingly, driving me to sleep.

 I woke up around 4:40am to call her, but she already boarded the plane.The flight was around 3:50, I woke up around 4:40, reached the phone if I could call her..
17th Feb,3:48am
I am in the plane, hope you're feeling good. Missing you guys.
That was the last message I received from her.

Its a month today,she left us,a month after the disastrous,gloomy night...
I am accustomed to see things without her, but can't say I'm not missing her..

-We wrote our internal exams without her for the first time, missed the time we spent chatting, and in figuring out all the ways to run away from exams..
-Didn't go to canteen since you left..
-Didn't eat pani puri near sharma xerox..
-My cell phone's charging remains full for 2-3 days..
-Together we were jerks watching flicks on HBO....Now,guess my reflex arc doesn't react to humor without you..
-Holi colors are kept in the store room, waiting for you..

p.s it's been  a month this draft's been lying..I know people out there must be thinking-'both the things should've been written seperately..a freiend who left & a nightmare..but you see both of them struck me at the same I got no time to write 2 separate blogs for only two three  readers out there... :P