Lost in thoughts..

 You achieve a lot in life..alhumdulillah to that. You keep praying for months and years for it to happen that one day when you get what you pray for..you will be in content. You will feel the best, you will no longer sit in despair, you will have your next steps planned. You will have that success. But that's not how you feel when you get things you been yearning for years, you feel the floating moment of success and happiness, but still lost in thought and confused about what will happen next?

Often we think about our purpose in life, relate it to goals with progress at work, family, buying property. But, is that it? And you will feel - yes!! No.

The lockdown and living at home makes you feel burned out, tired or is it the information you take in.  The pandemic has effected countries like Syria and Yemen so much, as if there was less suffering for those countries already and all I can do is send a prayer, like a photo on social platform and maybe sometimes support the organizations helping these countries people. It's difficult to get the faces of orphan kids, war ruined homes, draught effected pictures out of my mind. For me, they're just pictures and I am a spectator, but for someone else it is their life.

In this moment, I think - I wish I was there, helping people who need food, clothing, shelter. I wish we all were equipped to do things we want to..I wish we were so strong to just leave everything and go lend a helping hand. Theres a feeling of guilt that 'oh you don't have to worry about what's happening there, you are here.'

Oh Allah, let us help however we can, cross oceans and countries and help the people we want. Alhumdulillah for what we have, but please lessen the sufferings of the underprivileged.